My mind automatically jumps to the end. I haven't even started and my mind is at the finish line. It's bad. I forget to take the first step and wonder how I will ever finish. I focus so hard on where the end is that I neglect the road under my feet. All this is figurative. It is worst with homework. As soon as I think about doing it, I get overwhelmed with the thought of all I have to do to finish. It's a real problem because it happens every time and I don't even realize it. All I really know is I can't do it. So automatically I figure something irreparable is wrong with me and I have to fight and fight to get over it. Really all I have to do is realize how I am thinking and try to focus on the next, immediate step instead of the end result. Like this stupid paper. I keep thinking about what the teacher may want and the presentation I am going to have to do and I forget to learn the material so I go over it again and again and nothing really sinks in. I can't remember anything I read and therefore, the work only gets harder, which reaffirms my belief that I just can't do it. FREAK.
Another one of Ben Cooper's bands. Guy is some kind of special.
Radical Face - Glory
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