Skip this post. Boring introduction.

Hmmm...I am just barely starting and I'm already over it.

I guess everyone is entitled space for their voice. Sometimes I feel like I have been quiet for too long. I can't say I deserve any "subscribers," but later I will at least be able to say I said something. See what I did there? Oh my gosh, for once you can actually SEE what I did there.

The purpose of this blog is selfish. Actually everyone hopes that their story has something that can help other people. My mom keeps talking about the book I will write and I'm sure I will because most likely a PhD in Psychology will require something like that.

But the purpose of this blog is for me to start talking more. There's too much thinking in this small brain and not enough spewing.

I'm not even sure I will share this with anyone, I've started a Google+ (what does that mean) account and skipped adding friends but I will continue to write like this just in case I grow some courage*.

Wow I have read what I wrote and I have to say this is boring. So I warned you in the title.
Now for something exciting. A good band: Wildcat! Wildcat! I am listening to them on SoundCloud right now. Very inspirational. A funky mix of empty-hall, bright sounding keys and simple, soft dance beats. Music is always exciting.

PURPOSE

Ok, the reason I am writing is to help me deal with depression and anxiety. Whew, tore that band-aid off. I must say, even to an empty audience that is an unnerving thing to say. Got some juices flowing. I guess in my mind it is something to be ashamed of; something to hide. Well that is how I have acted the past few years anyway. There are those cheesy sayings like "Depression is not a sign of weakness, it's a sign that you have been strong for too long," but that's just filling in my pillow. I don't know what I mean by that but it makes sense.

I must say, simply the idea of sharing this with people is liberating. In this age where we spend a lot of time alone, the main culprit (this computer) provides some of its own antidote. Wow, getting clever there, watch out! I hope this isn't trying too hard. I guess focusing on not trying too hard is trying too hard so I better stop before I start. Woah.

So, my next post, if this isn't another fickle attempt at "curing" myself, will be [hopefully] (yes I meant to use brackets) a brief and unboring synopsis of my depression and anxiety.

And within this blog I hope to share music because I love music. And movies. And Calvin and Hobbes quotes. It gives me incentive to indulge.

Wildcat! Wildcat! - Mr. Quiche